I am and will probably always be an anticipator. I remember being told as a kid not to wish my life away because every other sentence out of my mouth was "I can't wait until [insert something exciting and in the future here]." There are definitely good and bad things to living one's life entirely in the future. For one thing, I'm terrifically goal-oriented because of my misplacement in time, and that's really helped me to attain a lot of the things I want in life.
(Side note, I think that part of the reason why I am so good with money is because I am such an anticipator. I can do with not touching my money now because of how much more it will be worth then. And since I basically live in the then, it's not even like I'm really giving anything up. This is, paradoxically, the exact same reason why I find it difficult to deny myself delicious fattening things now. Because I know they won't last until then, because even if I don't eat them, someone else will. There is no Chocolate Cake savings account with 3% Cream Filling compound interest. Wouldn't that be awesome?)
Unfortunately, being a time traveler from the future does make me mighty impatient in some ways. I have trouble just forgetting about where I am hurrying and stopping to enjoy myself. So if I don't force myself to take a moment every once in a while to notice where I am and what is happening, I miss out on some great stuff. (It also leads me to be remarkably snippy on telephone help lines. Why can't this problem just be FIXED already?)
What's odd is that I don't have anything to race toward right now. The career I've always wanted is starting to come together for me, albeit in a different form than I anticipated. I have a beautiful baby boy who stuns me with his happiness and delight in the world. I have a loving, handsome, funny husband whose neuroses mesh very well with mine. For all of my life, a running ticker tape in my mind would state "I miss...I wish...I can't wait...If only...etc." Now, I find myself thinking "I wish..." and realizing nothing in particular should fill in the sentence. This is only a problem in that I need to rewire my brain's default thinking mode. (And you know that will require a phone call to the help desk. Because the brain help menus are never user friendly. And if that damn paper clip starts knocking, offering to help me write a letter, I will have something legitimate to be snippy about).
I've spent much of my life so far living in the perpetual future. I think it's finally gotten here. I have no idea what to do with it.
I suspect that this is where LO will come in handy. Though he's almost completely potential at this point, he also is only capable of handling one thing at a time. Babies are the ultimate in mindful living. If he can giggle like a madman while taking a bath or having his diaper changed or after throwing up for the sixth time in a day, then clearly he knows a little more than I do about how to enjoy and recognize the moment.
There have been several times when I wished I could see what the ticker tape through LO's head is reading. It probably doesn't get much more complicated than "I like this! I like this! Yaaaay! Now I'm hungry! Waah!" But it would still be useful to know. And I know that I could learn something from him. Because how much more satisfied would I be if I could catch myself thinking "I like this!" several times a day?